I have a new intention to promote my healing – helped along, it seems, by all the experiences I’ve posted about in the last few days and the support I’ve experienced from you all.
I believe this plan is better thought-through than previous intentions – though I’m aware of one major weakness, for which I’ll welcome suggestions and thoughts.
First, I plan to make myself open to my inner wisdom in a mediation walk every day. (I’ve never yet been consistent with intentions to sit still, so I’ll now go walking and get my exercise while I’m at it.) How I’ll keep this intention, I’ll explain in the last part.
Second, I plan to keep a single journal – only one, not different ones and random sheets of paper, but one, to represent my unified mind, and to facilitate greater awareness and my alters coming together.
Third, I’ll do self-hypnotherapy or other inner exploration a couple/few times a week, sometimes with my partner’s assistance, and document it.
The fourth aspect – the part that will assure I don’t slack on the other three parts – is to end my isolation by posting my progress for an audience who will be expecting to hear from me. I hope this will hold me to greater accountability than I’ve ever sustained before. You’ll recognize – and I’ll recognize – if I’m not doing my work!
But the major flaw, I’m sure most of you will recognize, is the problem of reprogramming. How do I assure that that doesn’t happen? Especially when I post my progress.
A naive person would say that I’ll learn my command cues right away and thereafter be protected from them, but we know it’s not that easy. There are multiple command cues, and each one comes with trauma that – it seems – must be remembered or experienced in some manner for the cue to be recognized. To recognize all the cues at once would require experiencing all the trauma at once – which no psyche could do – why we remain split.
So, how did I convince myself that this plan would work? How did I think I’d escape reprogramming? Was it just denial and hope, with which I pulled myself out of my funk and got back to functioning – and now that I’m functioning again, I have the strength to realize that my plan is seriously flawed?
Maybe. But let’s think about it.
I’m going to brainstorm all the ways in which I could be protected while I do this work.
1) Don’t leave the house until the work is done. Don’t answer the door. Don’t answer the phone. Don’t go on-line. But that doesn’t protect one from energetic transmissions, which I have felt, moved away from, felt them as if searching for me, moved again, and went to bed, where they found me again and then, needing to sleep, I just lay in bed and accepted that there was no escape. So, this seems out (for me).
2) Depend on my spirit help, my cosmic family. I am ashamed to say that I’ve been inconsistent with my trust in them – probably programmed to be inconsistent. If I could make this a major part of my work, with reminders surrounding me, with my partner to remind me and pray with me, with a circle of friends supporting me – I think this is the best hope I have.
3) Be my own spiritual protection, a warrior for myself like I’ve never been before, with all the visual and friend reminders I need surrounding me, keeping me constant, not flagging half the time, to overcome whatever programming I have against that. Well, just because I’ve failed in this and trusting in my Help in the past, doesn’t mean I’ll continue to fail. If we keep trying, I believe that we can find the key, so I will keep this intention strong also.
4) Move into a protected space? Someone recommended a Vipassana meditation retreat, which I looked into despite my initial suspicions. I concluded I’m still suspicious or at least untrusting that the place would be safe. There’s every possibility that another programmer could be inside, either as staff or another participant. So, that doesn’t work for me.
5) That reminded of Colin Ross’ healing centers, specifically for MK subjects. Has anyone heard of anyone going through one? It would seem that they would know everything about this and be the perfect place – if one had the money. But, shoot, they could be infiltrated by now as well. Anyone heard anything? It seems that, for there being three of their centers in the US, someone would be talking about them if they worked.
6) Any other suggestions?
For now, I’m left with 2 and 3 being my only protection – and I don’t mean “only” in a diminishing way. Our spiritual help can work miracles, I believe, as can we, when we are fully in our power.
But for me to be fully in my power will take more willpower and intention than I’ve yet rallied for myself in all these years of desiring healing.
Of course, I’ve been mostly alone or not ready this last decade. And now I have a wonderfully supportive partner and a more complete understanding of the seriousness of this situation, having tried and failed enough, I guess.
So, today’s the first day. I just returned from my walking meditation. The details of my prayers I’ll keep to myself, but will post the broader picture of the week at the end of the week.
You all have given me new courage that I’d lost in isolation. Thank you. Your gift is huge. I do believe we could be helping save each others’ lives.
Let’s keep on.
Peace, love, and healing ~
Hi, Jean–Kathy from Berkeley here. You mentioned Colin Ross healing centers. I didn’t know he ran any, but a good resource for reading discussions of that or any other retreat might be Google Groups: http://www.groups.google.com. At least, the old Google Groups used to be good. I think it’s now switched to the new GG and I’m skeptical of any entity as big as Google–especially since Google no longer automatically lists “groups” as a search category. Trying to suppress independent research? I found that his center in CA is called “Del Amo”, so I put “colin ross del amo” in the GG search engine and found some discussions.
I think the first priority for everyone on this planet (aside from survival) should be deprogramming, but for those of us knowing or suspecting targeted programming in our lives, it’s most critical! However, I feel daunted when I see how complex it can be–such as reading Fritz Springmeier and Cisco Wheeler’s book, “The Illuminati Formula to Create an Undetectable Total Mind Control Slave” http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/sociopolitica/mindcontrol/mindcontrol_index.htm or “Deeper Insights into the Illuminati Formula” http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/sociopolitica/mindcontrol2/index.htm. The programming they describe gets Byzantine in it’s multiple. layers! I’ve only dipped into these, so don’t know what their recommendations are. If interested, maybe Fritz could give some guidance. He’s at firstname.lastname@example.org. He’s first and foremost a Christian (I think, Fundamentalist), but i do think sincere and certainly experienced. Or he might know someone else to consult.
I try to be my own warrior as much as possible, but require grounding from my husband. It actually helps (though hinders occasionally!) that he doesn’t delve into these matters and is somewhat skeptical, but very loving. So we don’t go off into Fear together–except he gets anxious when I do. I’ve seen so many amazingly devious performances by trusted figures in “alternative” realms that I’ve learned (as have you) that it takes many grains of salt and, often, time, to judge in whose hands you’re safe.
I think this blog is a great step toward healing and I hope you get many helpful responses. I know I’m going to learn a lot from you, as I already have with your phenomenal book, “Rattlesnake Fire”.
Thanks a lot for your very useful information. I hope many others will use it. And if you – all readers – discover salient information before I do, please post. I sometimes get “busy” and take way too long to find things. Hopefully, together, we can help each other along more quickly.
I also appreciate your acknowledgement that “targeted programming” is extremely difficult to unravel. Makes me feel not-such-a-failure. I should contact Fritz.
I, too, must give credit to my partner, whose groundedness really helps me. He, too, can avoid the Fear most of the time, and it’s even good to sense his skepticism – sometimes it feels good to pretend it might not have been the way it seems, even with the evidence; and sometimes it is empowering to lay out all the evidence and point out the parallels and patterns throughout human history and hear him say he sees it.
You’ve been a great resource, Kathy. Thanks.
Oops, remembered one other thing I was going to say, kind of along the lines of self-forgiveness for not being farther along than you think you should be/want to be. They say, “problems can not be solved at the level at which they were created.” This is especially true of the many of the black ops/MK type stuff, which is not only done covertly in the 3d machinations, but also involves a lot of stuff in the astral. Since the astral is ‘nonexistant’ for most humans we are definitely all learning how to navigate that. I love what you say in the next post, “we are not given training on interdimensional interactions” or something like that. I laughed out loud to see that in print, at last.
Anyhow, HK is a way to go to the level in time/space where the problems were created, but beyond it with the wisdom of spirit itself/higher self/oversoul, whatever you like to call it. Its a way to blast through the illusion, clear out that which has been feeding on the blockage and sapping your energy that can be used to initiate change and redirect one’s own potential energy into embodied kinetic energy. You may simply not be able to do this because the ‘potential’ is locked up and harnessed in trauma and being fed off by interdimensionals. One cannot create kinetic change with that in place, hence the need to clear it out. Debriding in this way then allows the healing to begin. The percolation into the 3d life/self happens immediately, but is sourced on the higher level plane and therefore can be more lasting, I have found.
Anyhow… enough for now.
I appreciate this: “HK is a way to go to the level in time/space where the problems were created, but beyond it with the wisdom of spirit itself/higher self/oversoul, whatever you like to call it. Its a way to blast through the illusion, clear out that which has been feeding on the blockage and sapping your energy that can be used to initiate change and redirect one’s own potential energy into embodied kinetic energy. You may simply not be able to do this because the ‘potential’ is locked up and harnessed in trauma and being fed off by interdimensionals. One cannot create kinetic change with that in place, hence the need to clear it out. Debriding in this way then allows the healing to begin. The percolation into the 3d life/self happens immediately, but is sourced on the higher level plane and therefore can be more lasting, I have found.”
I know it may sound very esoteric to many (“multi-dimensional” is how I encourage others to consider it), and I can’t claim to be able to explain it or even understand it fully, for all the reasons we’ve already discussed, yet I believe it’s the key to clearing our perceptions enough to begin to understand. And so, I will be taking my first steps toward understanding a bit about the HK process and Eden Energy work and deciding how to support my intentions.
Thanks again, Caroline.
And healing prayers for everyone seeking help here ~
Thank you all for caring and believing in your worth and your ability to transcend the traps and grow into our full potentials.
This sounds like a great new force in your life — your own life force thrusting forward to reclaim itself! Congrats!
Reading this did make me want to mention the holographic kinetics technique, as I think you might find it really helpful as a way to ‘jump start’ this project in its new dimension of intent. I’ve been on the healing path for a long time, and by January I was ready to jump start that process. The HK sessions were a way for me to do that, and to clear out the interference that was holding my 3D self back from doing what it could do for itself. You might be underestimating how much of the clogs and distraction are truly not of your own design. Also, clarifying who and what your ‘divine guidance’ really is might be helpful as well.
You can read about the technique and see some examples of how it works and what it can accomplish here: http://www.holographickinetics.net/
If you would like to see my personal examples, or hear more about the technique from someone dealing with very similar issues as you is getting from this, how it works, etc, feel free to email me and you can see transcripts of the sessions.
Sounds like you have a plan, and are on a path already, which is fantastic. Just thought I would add some info that has worked for may and may augment and/or accelerate what you are doing already.
I’m open to other help, absolutely. So, let’s correspond re this technique.
I also have a friend in town who does Eden Energy Work and is in training to do a higher level of the work, which may be along the same lines as HK. A few months ago I asked her to work with me, then changed my mind when my finances looked sketchy. Now, I’m thinking I should reconsider – and I’ll also investigate HK with your help. So thanks!
I think you’re right that we do take on as our personal burdens and failings what are actually intensely-implanted energetic issues, from which we might need more serious help than just our intentions and willpower.
As for acknowledging “who and what” is my divine guidance – yes, I do believe it is crucial, as I discussed yesterday in response to “Infocyde” on one of these blog comments….
And everyone else: I don’t want to encourage myself and everyone else to try something impossible. That’s why I’m being as transparent as I can, admitting my failures for all to see the pitfalls, as well as twists, turns, restarts, and successes.
Onward, in faith.
i wish you the best ms jean. i hope your plans work out. weaken the mind programs you have. stay true to yourself. practice honesty all the time. what they did to you(and many others), is not cool. at all. and never will be.
Thanks, Dan. I appreciate your awareness and comment.
Yes, I do that too (when I remember and don’t talk myself out of it). Thank you for describing it. Now let’s not be random!
My home is my spiritual place. For me, most nights, or sometimes randomly inspiration, will have me stand in my house and Claim it as my own reality, a place of rest, a place of sanctuary. My home is my protected space, your home can be your protected space.
Ask for guardians, put up your walls of light, create your space. You must believe that your space is your own. You can do this!