I realized a year or two ago that my site here and on YouTube both reflect the parts of me that are most angry and afraid and identify as activists; whereas the parts of me that go on with life, keep contributing, making art, being a friend, etc. aren’t as interested in writing about the good parts of my life – they just want to live and catch up on missed time – so my websites don’t reflect the whole of me, only the negative sides.
So, this is my first success in sitting down with my happy alter out to give balance to my story. Posted just yesterday.
Now, today I feel pretty bad again – for the firs time in a while – having a hard time expanding my lungs to take deeper breaths, so I’m breathing shallowly and don’t have much energy. And in a half hour I’ll arrive for my first day at work on a new job. Breathe. Breathe. Breath. It’ll all be okay.